I NEED HELP!
Hello Bob and Jillian,
I have missed the last two times to enter for the biggest loser and have been so sick because of it. Every time I try to enter, I would just go so blank when it would come to the video. I just could not bring myself to tape myself. I am watching tonight with tears wishing it were me and how I want to feel so proud of myself how I want so bad to acheive the same goal.
I know I need direction and to be in a atomosphere where I can focus on me. You see, I have gained 120lbs over the last 6 years and I am a 5'4" female who weighs 278lbs. I have not always been heavy but have been up and down, just not this big. If I may tell you how I came to be so heavy.
In short; I had a home built; first stress trigger, lost job started another; second stress trigger, moved less than a year later to take a relationship to the next level, to a place with no family; third stress trigger, another job. You see he was a youth pastor and I couldn't ask him to move. Finally, he asked me to marry. I did my own wedding planning and did all the invitations and programs and only had two weeks to plan and get married before we moved again. He was to attend Andrews University, fourth stress trigger. Shortly after the move I was informed my sister had cancer, stage four colon that had spread to her liver; fifth stress trigger. I was diagnosed with adreanal burn-out and suffered from bouts of depression therefore developed emotional eating.
I just turned 45 years old on April 2nd and have come a long way to see the sun again, but what is holding me down now, my weight. I do not know how to work out or even to begin. I have missed the last two chances to enter and am praying somehow I will be able to enter. I think you have closed the openings already though. I guess what I am asking is what or how do I get started? Help me please; I want to be me again! I want to be here for my 12 year old daughter, I am so scared because I have a lot of belly fat. Can you please help me?
Desperate,
Donna
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