King
Lately, I've been taking risks. Quite a few acctually. But then again, what is life without a little risk?
I applied for uni last week, bachelor in English language and litterature, really cool stuff. It was so wierd and exciting to sit there, at my office, pretending to work, while deciding my future. I had it all in my own two hands, who I was, who I am and who I'm going to be. It was that moment when you think, "this is it." The deep breath you always have to take before taking a leap of faith. And it really was a leap of faith. I've never understood until now how fond I am of the English language and culture. I've always felt like I was just adequite in every thing I did. I wasn't best at soccer, I wasn't best in math or music. But, English has always been something that I was above average in. I was top notch, and now I've based my whole life on it.
And while we're on the topic of discovering things, I've never seen how truly happy I am. I've got a great job, big circle of friends, I can make music and write poems and long short-stories. I guess some people, like myself, don't give ourselves enough credit for what we are acctually good at. Fine, I don't have a sixpack or at least a flat stomach, I'm not that hansome or "hot", but it's that what really defines me? I'm a true believer of quality over quantity, it's the effort you put in every tiny thing you do that defines who you really are and what you stand for. We base our entire lives on what people that are around us think about us and what they believe to be cool and fun. Only once have I met someone who's completely and utterly insane and who shares my believes. Of course she's smoking hot and two years older than me so it'll never happen, but screw that.
The reason so many people are depressed and lonely is because by some crappy incident, being depressed was cool. It was geniuly accepted as cool and it showed that you've got emotion and it was okay to just sit back and recieve tons of pity. I don't want that, I don't people to take pity on me for not having what ever it takes to get a girl or look good. From now on, I'm gonna give myself credit for the things I do, it's only fair to all of us. We can't all be superheros or superstars with over the top villas and mansions.
I'm gonna work my freaking ass of, and then spend practically all my money on this one freaking great summer vacation. "but, dude what about uni? doesn't that cost money?" - hell yes! but for once in my life I want to experience something that's gonna stick with me and define who I am. In three years I'll be living in Australia for christ sake! This is huge!
I'm the king of the world!
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